(Courtney's Notes from March 2018)
I simply left the counseling room and my coronary heart was stuffed with disappointment. I didn't need to go dwelling, so I made a decision to go for a drive. I rolled down all of the home windows, turned up the radio and drove. I had nowhere to go. I discovered some again roads, one city over and simply drove and drove and drove.
My hair was flying everywhere and I used to be singing out loud to the music and the tears began to circulation. My crying was sobbing till I couldn't see the street forward and needed to cease.
I cried loads that day.
A a lot wanted cry.
Then I received again on the street, with the comfortable enjoying of worship music, and made the lengthy journey dwelling.
God appeared nearer than ever that day.
The Lord is near the brokenhearted and saves those that are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18
God gave us tear ducts for a cause. Generally tears categorical feelings that no phrases can come near, and God noticed my tears that day. He noticed my damaged coronary heart and was with me.
It was liberating to let the tears circulation.
However after I cried, I needed to transfer on.
I needed to go forward.
You see, the enemy needs to maintain us in a loop the place we maintain replaying the previous hurts, wounds and ache in our minds. If he can maintain us imprisoned, he can provide us a loss of life grip. Staying caught causes us to lose peace, pleasure and love and as a substitute be stuffed with confusion, bitterness and anger.
It's really easy for my thoughts to maintain making sense of issues that don't make sense again and again!
I keep in mind speaking to my dad and mom and making an attempt to grasp how my marriage fell aside – the place did I am going flawed? And my dad informed me—”Courtney, you're making an attempt to make sense of one thing that doesn't make sense and you may't.”
I repeated these phrases out loud to my youngsters and pals after I noticed them caught in the identical loop.
We might be caught there for years if we're not cautious and there are just a few issues this facet of heaven that may by no means be resolved or tied up neatly in a bow.
Studying to stay with issues that don't make sense is tough.
Very very arduous.
However it’s potential!
Very very potential.
Forgetting what's behind and straining for what's forward I maintain pushing to the purpose of successful the prize for which God referred to as me to heaven in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:13-14
Key is acceptance.
If you already know the 5 levels of grief – then you already know that the ultimate stage is acceptance. It took me just a few years to get there – however I received there.
I needed to take my harm to the Lord repeatedly till I lastly left it with him.
Then…I began dwelling within the current.
While you let go of previous hurts and wounds – it's wonderful how liberating it may be.
Oh pals – I would like you to stay free!!!
What do you dwell on from the previous? What’s the enemy in your life utilizing to entice you?
It's time to go away it up to now with Jesus. Yell if you have to, and transfer ahead after you're carried out crying. Concentrate on the current – what’s God doing in your life proper now? As we speak?
Let's proceed collectively – as we take it at some point at a time.
Stroll on with the king
Courtney 🙂
